Silly Australian? Probably.

It was not a peaceful night, I spoke to a friend a bit about my problem; he sent me a link to a website intended for one night stands... So not helpful in my prevailing situation. Got to head to class today. *yawns* Develop keyboard skills, maybe I can get an RPL or a bullet I`m easy like that when I`ve been up since before the false dawn.
Maybe I do have serious feelings for the girl? God knows she can make me laugh which is always helpful.

You`d think after nearly a solid dozen relationships I`d be able to discuss my feelings wouldn`t you?
No such luck, hell I`m not even sure what my feelings are towards her, I`m so screwed up.
Then her daughter said through my door what sounded like "mummy misses you." I nearly cried afterwards. Two year olds sure know how to hit below the belt.

My head is a real bloody mess... Got dumped two weeks ago by the love of my life, and then wind up in bed with another girl on 9/11. This is so far divorced from my normal behaviour I doubt even my family could understand it. The mother of my kids doesn`t know about the breakup thankfully so I don`t have to deal with her crap regarding it.
The really strange thing is I`m not sure HOW I feel about this new girl, since I got dumped my emotional responses have been completely bogus. I might love her or hate her, but I know it was one of the most intense experiences I`ve ver had, it felt right from start; to the considerably later finish.
What to do though? Like my life isn`t complicated enough without going back to old patterns.